My Story

About 3 years ago I decided to be a stay at home mom. Before this I was a systems analyst and project manager for 16 years. I’ve always been good at research, pulling together information and simplifying it. When I became a stay at home mom, I finally had the mental capacity and time to research something I had been curious about my whole life: what happens when we die and what is the purpose of life. I had been an atheist and healthy skeptic for most of my life but I was still a very curious person. I followed the life purpose of work hard, make money, have kids and be kind. This is all fine and good but still left me feeling confused, unfulfilled and experiencing anxiety and fear of death. My research was focused on near death experiences, evidential mediumship, Michael Newton's hypnosis work and how it all bridged together with the study of consciousness. In three years I learned so much about the purpose of life, the afterlife, the evidence I was looking for and so much more. The key to everything was energy.

I began my research with near death experiences (NDEs). I figured that if someone knows what happens when we die, it will be someone that died and came back. What I found was a database of near death experiences online. As I read one account after the other I realized that they were all so similar, detailed and genuine. I was hungry to read more. I found books by people that had studied thousands of near death experiences. As I read, I started to realize that there may actually be an afterlife. There was no way that this many people would make-up these stories. Some of these near death experiences had evidential information and corroboration, for example a person that died in the hospital bed would remember what their doctor said down the hall from their body or knew what family members were doing at the time of their death. Here are two good examples of near death experiences: Shocking Near Death Experience - 9 Days in the Spirit Realm and Fascinating Near Death Experience - Encounters Galactic Soul Group

I also researched the topic of out-of-body experiences (OBEs) and my research found that these experiences were very similar to near death experiences. OBEs occur when the energy body separates from the physical body while someone is falling asleep, in the sleep state, or meditating. This can occur unexpectedly or it can be induced with practice. I focused on books and literature by Robert Monroe and William Buhlman. You can read details in my blog post called Out-of-Body Experiences.

Once I dipped my toes in reading about NDEs and OBEs, I found evidential mediumship to be of interest. Evidential mediumship is where a medium provides evidence that no one else could know. I decided to take a class with Suzanne Giesemann online to see how mediumship works and if it is real. As part of this class, she recommended meditation. I started using her 3 minute meditations on her website which led me to her longer meditations from the hemi-sync website. See my detailed blog post on meditation for more on this. As I attended her classes, I was impressed with her. Suzanne Giesemann was a high ranking navy commander and I found her to be very accomplished, organized and impressive. What I also found in her mediumship class was that this was real, spirits were able to communicate with humans, she was getting evidence, and that anyone could do it. 

The way mediumship works is that when a person dies or “crosses the veil” the person becomes energy, which is what they were before they were in a human body. This form of energy is actually our natural state. Even though a spirit is in energy form, we can still communicate, it’s just a little different and much harder in my opinion. Spirits communicate to us through our clairs (clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience..etc) which are associated with the chakra system. The human brain acts as an actual filter to prevent us from experiencing the energetic universe. When we meditate and learn to “turn off” the left brain we are able to better connect with the energetic universe. That’s basically how it works. There are some mediums that I believe are born with certain filters turned off in their brain so they see and hear spirits naturally. The rest of us have to meditate and turn off the left brain in order to experience more of the energetic universe.

The way spirits communicate is very subtle. For me, the communication comes through as a voice in my head or a picture in my mind. Spirits are not in the physical, they are energetically communicating. The tricky part for me has been to turn off my left brain in order to receive communication. I understand why people may feel afraid of mediumship or meditation, I was afraid as well. What I realized was that my fear was coming from movies and tv shows. What was real for me is that the mediumship class I took was focused on love, gratitude and curiosity. See my blog post called Mediumship and Intuition for more detail on my mediumship experiences.

There is also the concept of “oneness” which allows thoughts to be transmitted from one soul to another soul. The overall concept is that all souls originate from one source therefore all souls are interconnected. This concept of oneness is described by near death experiencers where they describe a feeling of being one with all the universe. They also describe the spirit side showing them the interconnectedness of all things like a web. It’s a very difficult concept for humans to comprehend because we have become very good at separating ourselves. Science has also hit on the concept of oneness via the theory of quantum entanglement.  

As I was meditating and attending Suzanne’s classes, I found that I was able to release my fears and anxieties using her tools. I started focusing on gratitude whenever my fear or anxiety came up (see my blog post called Fear for more on this). I started meditating for longer periods and enjoying all the benefits that come with meditation. I also learned about spirit guides and figured out who mine are along the way. See my blog post called Spirit Guides for more detail on this.

As I was taking Suzanne's class, I was also ravenously reading books. I’ll share what I found in my research in regards to what we are before we are human and what we become after we leave this human body. Before we incarnate into this human body we are a soul but what does that mean? A soul is a form of energy. Based on my research, Source, God, Creator (whatever term you like) is an infinite energy source of unconditional love. It sounds whimsical I know but this is what I’ve found. See my blog post on Source/God for more detail on this. We as souls are birthed from this Source. I picture us as little energy balls of white light emerging from a huge energy source that looks like an infinite, colorful, light-filled sun. Once we leave the Source, we are cared for by evolved souls. We then go through training and continue to grow and learn as souls. We are part of soul groups and grow together, and we have teachers who are older or more evolved souls. At some point we are ready to incarnate.   

The purpose of reincarnation is for learning and the experience. Apparently it is innate for us as souls to want to grow and evolve. As we evolve the color of our energy changes, you can see this color scale in Michael Newton’s books. We also grow personality traits and specific interests as we evolve. You can see imprints of this in your human personality. In between incarnations we study and learn with our soul groups. I refer to the spirit realm as the state we are experiencing in between incarnations. Michael Newton coined this state, “Life Between Lives”. To understand the details of what souls do in the spirit realm, Michael Newton’s books are the most detailed that I’ve found. To summarize, souls have jobs, play games, learn from teachers, socialize and travel just as we do. It’s just on a much grander scale. 

My understanding is that there are infinite planets for souls to incarnate. Imagine you are a soul made of energy in a spirit realm filled with unconditional love for eternity. The prospect of incarnating into a physical body on a physical planet can be very exciting. On Earth, you will find that there are humans that have been incarnating on Earth for thousands of years and have hundreds of incarnations. You will find that there are souls with less incarnations that are less evolved. And you will also find humans that were incarnating on other planets before they started incarnating on Earth. Each time we incarnate, we are learning and growing as a soul. I went on a search to find out more about my past, specifically about my past lives and who I am as a soul. See my blog post called Reincarnation for more details on this.

Before we incarnate on Earth, we go through a very long process to plan our incarnation. This is referred to as a “soul plan”, a “soul contract”, or a “pre-birth contract”. We meet with other souls, choose our spirit guides that will support us during the incarnation, decide our family members, our challenges, the time period we want to incarnate, and we even choose the number of years we want to live for the incarnation. When we want to leave this incarnation, exit points are set up and the type of crossing is decided, basically how we want to die. See my blog post called The Soul Plan for more detail on this. When physical death occurs, we transition back to a state of energy. We are pulled into the light by a gravitational-like force and return back to our "Home". We then travel to different gateways in the spirit realm and eventually back to the location we inhabit with our soul group. At some point we are ready to incarnate again. All of the details of this are consistent across near death experiencers, mediums, and those under hypnosis. See my blog post called What Happens When We Die for more detail on this.

The incarnation process on Earth is considered very challenging. Part of the deal with coming to Earth is that we have “amnesia” and cannot remember who we are as a soul, our other incarnations, and the spirit realm. This is considered a very big challenge compared to other planets. My understanding is that on more evolved planets, the beings are allowed to remember more. The reason for this spiritual amnesia is for the learning experienced here on Earth. Earth is considered a very challenging school but souls line up to incarnate here because of how much the soul evolves. Additionally, the human brain acts as a filter, filtering out the energetic universe and we are taught that only the physical exists, so most of us just listen to these teachings and focus on the physical material world. 

When the soul incarnates on Earth, the whole soul cannot incarnate into a human body. Essentially the soul is too big so only a percentage of the soul’s energy incarnates in the human body. The percentage of the soul left in the spirit realm is called the “higher self” or the “oversoul”. This higher self is still energetically attached to us when we are in human form which is why spiritual teachers suggest meditations to connect with your higher self. When you meditate to connect with your higher self, it allows you to connect with who you are as a soul. I met with a very talented channeler that channeled my higher self and it was fascinating. See my blog post called Channeling the Higher Self for more detail on this.

The human body can be a difficult body to incarnate in. This is because the human body is considered very emotional compared to the bodies that we can incarnate in on other planets. Earth is heavy in duality, specifically good vs bad, love vs fear, anger, guilt, and shame….it’s an emotional rollercoaster here on Earth. The soul loves learning through all these emotions because in the spirit realm, it’s just pure bliss and unconditional love. Apparently when you are in pure bliss, you don’t learn as much which is why spirits evolve quickly here on Earth. 

The human body has an energetic component. Some call this energy the auric field, Barbara Brennan called it the human energy field. The auric field has many different layers and chakra points. It makes sense to me that if we are in a state of energy before and after we are in a physical body, that there would be an energetic component to our human body as well. There are many different forms of energy and sound healing. I'm most familiar with the Barbara Brennan School of Healing and Reiki. Through my research, I found that disease on Earth is frequently caused by the energy of emotions. An example is that thyroid medication is a top prescribed medication in the United States. The energetic component to the thyroid is the throat chakra thus speaking negatively or not speaking ones truth can cause thyroid problems. I recommend Barbara Brennan's book, Hands of Light if interested in understanding this more. She was a former NASA physicist that dedicated her life to energetic healing. See my blog post called Energy Healing - Can Humans Heal Ourselves and Others for more detail on this.

There are a lot of conversations happening about energetic frequency, vibration, density and dimensions. I find it a little overcomplicated. Vibration is the overall energetic state. For example someone's vibration is high when focused on gratitude and joy and low when focused on guilt, shame, and fear. Frequency is how fast energy vibrates measured in Hertz (Hz). Emotions change the frequency of a person's energy. Emotions that contribute to high frequency are gratitude, love, compassion and low frequency emotions are judging others and yourself, fear, guilt, shame, and long term grief and anger. A person can change their vibrational state by focusing on gratitude when stressed or anxious, breathing exercises, forms of meditation (including yoga and qigong if the traditional forms don't appeal to you), walking in nature and helping others.

Dimensions are different states for souls to experience. They have different rules like countries. A soul can experience dimensions based on their frequency. Density is how heavy or light energy is within the dimension. For example on Earth we are in the 3rd dimension which is the most “physical” dimension to incarnate. We have very dense, physical human bodies and the focus is on the physical senses. The spirit realm is in higher dimensions. The 5th dimension is what we consider heaven and the 4th dimension is an in-between state like a bridge between the 3rd and 5th. The 4th and 5th dimensions are much like Earth but made of energy. When we leave our physical body, we are in what’s called an energy body which looks the same as our physical body but is made of energy. Even though we are considered energy, it all feels very physical. In the 5th dimension we can manifest what we want...a lot of waterfalls, rainbows, meadows, butterflies, beautiful parks etc.

Humans are still trying to understand the concepts of energy and dimensions. Based on near death experience accounts there are many realms and dimensions in the universe. My understanding is that there are planets in all different dimensions. The beings on these higher dimensional planets may have a form but not as dense as a human body. There are many planets much more advanced than Earth. What do I mean by that? Advanced planets do not use up and destroy their own planet in order to obtain resources, they know how to utilize energy, and they have advanced technology to visit other planets and galaxies. These planets are also inhabited by beings that focus on the concepts of oneness, love and community. I do believe that beings from other planets are trying to help humanity. I think there is still a lot of fear of "aliens" due to movies, tv and the media but I don't think this fear is based on reality. See my blog post on galactic beings called Are Galactic Beings Trying to Help Humanity? for more detail on this.

In regards to my experiences....after exploring mediumship my curiosity was piqued and I found myself wanting to hear directly from my spirit guides and higher self. I researched a bit and found channeling. Channeling is like mediumship but is a more direct connection with the spirit. The intuitive is speaking quickly and channeling as the spirit, rather than the medium interpreting what the spirit is trying to communicate. I found an amazing intuitive that could channel and I felt like I was hearing directly from my spirit guides and higher self. What was communicated had me speechless. I finally understood my purpose. See my blog posts called Spirit Guides and Channeling the Higher Self for more detail on this.

How does this all bridge with science? This is the study of energy known as quantum physics and the study of consciousness. Humanity still has much to do in regards to studying and understanding both and building tools to measure it. The focus in the medical and scientific community has been on the physical material world but I think this will change in the future. There are some key doctors and scientists trying to bridge consciousness with science. Specifically, Dr. Gary Schwartz is well known for his evidence based scientific research into mediumship and energy healing. Currently, a team of people led by Dr. Schwartz at the University of Arizona are in the process of developing technology to prove life after death and allow everyone the ability to communicate with deceased loved ones. You can read the details in my blog post called SoulPhone - Technology to Communicate with Deceased Loved Ones. Scientists, Helané Wahbeh and Mona Sobhani both wrote books providing scientific evidence for mediumship, remote viewing, and energy healing. See my blog posts called The Science of Channeling and Psychic Abilities and Neuroscientist Discusses Proof of Spiritual Phenomena in her Book. Furthermore, University of Virginia has been studying reincarnation, specifically children that have past life memories. They have 2,500 cases where their team verified the details that the children remembered. See my blog post called Evidence of Reincarnation for more details. I also took a course on the science of sound therapy with an acoustic-physics scientist named John Stuart Reid. John explained in the class that scientific studies provide evidence that sound therapy creates the same benefits as prescription drugs. I believe that sound therapy will be a big piece to humanity's future as we evolve. See my blog post on Sound Therapy for more details on this. I also incorporated links to some of the research organizations focused on the study of consciousness to my reference page.

So this is where my summary ends. I will be going into more detail on these subjects, specifically my own experiences on these topics. I'm not trying to "convince" anyone of anything but just share my own experiences, books I've read, and my research. I often find myself wanting to talk to people about my research and adventures in consciousness but struggle to find all the words. It has been an interesting journey so far and I'm sure there is much more to come.