Channeling My Grandmother

My Grandmother isn't who you think she is. If we discard the human fears, anxieties, and societal expectations and rules, and then we add on the wisdom from many lifetimes she has lived, including on Earth and likely on other planets, then we start to get closer to who my Grandmother really is. So when I recently joined a group channeling session with Stephanie and asked if she could channel my Grandmother, I wasn't shocked that Grandma the soul, is a little different from the Grandma that I knew here on Earth.

As I've said in prior blog posts, Stephanie is a very gifted channeler. She can channel spirit guides or the higher self, and in my experience she is very good at what she does. For the group channeling session, we were all on zoom and she called on me first. I said that I would love it if she could channel my grandmother on my mother's side, her name was Mary. I told her I was curious how my Grandmother's transition to the other side went and what she's up to in the spirit realm. Below was the message to me from my Grandmother:

"Oh I just want to put my arms around the bunch of ya, all of ya, just squeeze you, squeeze you, squeeze you close to me. Feel it? Do you feel it? I wonder. You wonder what I have been up to sweetheart, and I say, I would much rather talk about what you have been up to. Because what you have been up to is nothing short of miraculous to me. The things that you are uncovering, discovering, revealing, and the things that are being revealed to you. Wow, I say..wow, wow, wow who knew? Well I now know, but I didn’t know then. But now you know and you'll know more than what I knew, when I stopped thinking that I knew what I know. And so yes, good, this is a wonderful time for you to question what you think you know. Because if you start any statement with I think, well then you can pretty much guarantee that you have just squished yourself out of every other possibility. And this is one of the things that I find so spectacular about you, is you are willing to halt the thinking, even just for a bit. You are willing to suspend what you think you know and then search, dig, and do a big old excavation at what lies beneath, under, beyond, before, behind, and all of the different directions. So I’ll answer your question, I’m not trying to be evasive here, I just really want to highlight how phenomenal a being you are so you can know that, so you can feel that, so you can live that, so you can speak that, so you can offer that, because that’s why you are here and why I am in service to you.

As for me, I would honestly have to dust off the cobwebs to provide the details of my direct experience leaving the body. Not because of the timespan it has been since doing so, but because it’s something I have done so many times, I have literally lost count and you could likely say the same. Did this one make the top of my list as far as transitions go? No, not particularly but I’m not disappointed. There was love, great love. There was ease, more ease than I felt maybe even was reasonable to expect. And there was a great and vast party, a celebration of my return home and every single one of you all can expect the same. You should expect the same because coming home is like nothing else in this world. And I do not want to brag about it, but it’s just that I’ve done it so many times, that in and of itself it is precious, beautiful, and transformative so it was all of that yes.

What I’m up to now, that’s a really good question. I’m a fan of slowing down the pace for my loved ones. I get to move at a pace that is rightly fit and suited for me now which sometimes is breakneck speed but not something pressured at all. And other times it is so….very…..slow. And no I don’t get impatient, in fact I have nothing but time, because there is no such thing as time. And I would like to impart that wisdom to you as well. If you can, consciously slow down and you will get so much more. And eventually in your slowing down you will see, is the speeding up that you are craving to get things accomplished, in order to become more of and in alignment to receive with certainty the contacts, communications, and delightful interactions that you are most craving. So as I have said, I am absolutely beyond pleased to be in service to you and I look forward to more and more of the magic you are creating."

Before I move forward, let me address the elephant in the room first. How do I know this is my Grandmother and Stephanie isn't making this up? This message was extremely specific and meaningful to me so I don't think Stephanie would be able to say something that was so very directly meaningful to me. Although it's a beautiful message for anyone to read, the whole message had meaning under the meaning for me. The second point I wanted to make is that there have been channelings through Stephanie that were strangely and uniquely synchronistic to other information I found out. Let me share an example. In a channeling with Stephanie, I wanted to know who one of my spirit guides was. Another medium named Jen had said I had a spirit guide named Shema which means "to hear" in Hebrew. I asked Stephanie if she could channel this spirit guide called Shema and he said that he became an additional spirit guide for me when I chose to have deaf lifetimes so that I could hone my physical senses (see my blog post called A Deaf Past Life and Sound Therapy). Then I met with a different medium named Erin that told me I had 5 deaf past lives on Earth and she detailed out 3 of those lives for me. Yes, 5 deaf past lives! That's not something that just randomly comes up with three different medium that don't know each other. This is an example of how I know a medium or channeler is the real deal because weird shit like this comes up with multiple mediums. That's a long explanation but that's an example of how I know Stephanie is the real deal.

Ok so back to my Grandma's channeled message....As I said above, my Grandmother's message was very meaningful to me and she really wanted to focus on me and not what she was up to, but then again aren't Grandmothers always our biggest fan and want to focus on what we are up to, I guess even from the spirit realm! I believe my Grandmother was applauding me for my research and interest into metaphysics. I could say this was surprising since I never heard my Grandmother talk about spirituality or metaphysics; however, this is not the first time I have heard my grandparents tell me through a medium that they are very proud and impressed at the research work I am doing. You have to understand that my grandparents are on the spirit side so the fact that I know they still exist, that their soul is much bigger than who they were in that one life, and that I talk to them out loud probably makes them happy. Don't get me wrong here, all spirits are in pure bliss, but I mean this is what spirits want...they want us to know they are still around, and happily doing their thing in the spirit realm! When my Grandmother says she is also happily in service to me that means that she wants to help with my research into consciousness. This isn't surprising to me either, because the spirit realm wants humanity to wake up.

What I find interesting about this channeling from my Grandma is that I just recently wrote a blog post about not being fearful of death anymore (you can find it here: No More Fear of Death) and the first time I posted it, my post was similar to what my Grandma said about her transition. In the post I said that I've died every which way in my past lives, so I know that death ain't a big deal! I was a little nervous to post this thinking people may get the wrong idea that I'm too flippant about death so I updated it to provide more explanation. You can still see that I left the part on how I've had so many lives and died so many times that death does not concern me. About an hour after the channeling, this synchronicity of what my Grandma said and what I wrote in my blog post hit me. When this hit me, I saw an image of my Grandmother laughing as if to say you were right.

I also want to mention that her recommendation of slowing down in life was spot on and seems to be a common suggestion I keep hearing. My spirit guide recently told me through a channeling that one of my lofty goals here on Earth is to make magic out of the mundane. Trying to be present is always good advice no matter who it's coming from. I'll continue to remember that throughout my days. When my mind is spinning, that usually means I need to meditate but lately I've also been doing a better job at observing my thoughts and focusing on my breath which helps as well.

About a week ago, I was lying in bed meditating and I decided to ask my grandparents some questions. I remember asking my Grandmother about who she was as a soul. Something that came up that was very clear to me was that my Grandmother's personality was definitely affected by the generation and time period she was living in. Specifically, I got the feeling that when she was a child during her generation, parents were strict about how kids behaved, specifically I'm picturing an emphasis on manners and wearing the clothes they were told to wear, that type of thing. I also got the feeling that it was important for people to try to fit in and not ask a lot of questions. I don't think people talked about their feelings and emotions as much as they should have either, which led to addiction in many cases. There was also a lot of focus on survival due to the World Wars and Great Depression so all this really affected people in that generation. I also felt like my Grandmother was telling me that she didn't have the access to the knowledge that I have access to so maybe if she did, my Grandmother would have been different as well, who knows right. If the focus was truly on survival, fitting in, and for women to fade in the background, then this wasn't exactly who my Grandmother was as a soul. A soul is powerful, unique, authentic, and is filled with so many interesting lifetimes and experiences. Even with these issues during my Grandmother's generation she was always caring, kind, nonjudgemental, and compassionate which tells me she was an old soul. An old soul is a soul that has lived a lot of lifetimes, which is what my Grandmother was communicating.

So who really is my Grandmother? I think that the compassionate, caregiving, nonjudgemental, and kind attributes from her personality were coming from her soul and who she really is but in that channeling she sounded confident, playful, wise, and clever as well. After listening to that channeling, it reminded me that she's not my little Grandma. My Grandmother is either in my soul group or in a neighboring soul group, which means we probably have many lives together. This also means that Grandma was with me on my many lifetimes and adventures on other planets across the universe and throughout Earthly human history. I picture her as this big powerful soul that has a sense of humor about life here on Earth. When she went back to the spirit realm, she merged with her higher self and now she is coming from a much higher perspective when she is speaking to me through Stephanie. Thank you Grandma for your message, thank you for reminding me that I'm a phenomenal being because we all need that reminder sometimes. Thank you for reminding me how beautiful the transition to the spirit realm is, and that we are so much more than this one physical incarnation, we are so much more.